PLUS NORTH. Oh Plus North.
I'm going to do a picture post when I get my camera back from my lovely little sister so this is going to be a bit of a brain purge instead. How narcissistic.
WHAT A WEEKEND, it was incredible. I've spent time with some of the rocking-est, gorgeous-est, hilarious-est people that ever there was. I met people I had only seen on thumbnails, I wore a dress that made me feel like a mermaid (a good thing obviously), got to call myself a model (crazy stuff!), plus I got mega inspired by women who know their shit.
As I say, I'm going to do another post but I just want to get all this out there (plus I'm currently on Woodhead and have a brain full of fluff and thinkings) I feel like this weekend has given me a total brain turnaround.
I tweeted that I found going back to the "real world" last night HARD. Less than 24 hours with the gorgeous girls of Plus North but the whole time I felt confident, happy and secure. I was entirely myself the whole time and didn't feel like I had to be anything but.
I went out last night, it was my beautiful friend Anne's 30th birthday (I need to get hold of a picture of how she looked last night because you guys would have your minds BLOWN) At the party itself I was great because my friends and Anne's friends are absolutely mega and I love the bones of them. But on the way there, and when I was outside, I didn't like it. I just didn't like it.
Judgey stupid foolish people. The people physically shaking their head because they can't believe that a lady with a round tummy and a juicy butt could be confident and wearing what they daren't even wear. It can really knock you, particularly when you've been in a warm cocoon of plus sized fabulousness. The urge to slink* (*totter in shoes that HURT dude) off into a place where nobody can see you (toilets/corner of the smoking area/home) can be pretty intense.
BUT DONT WORRY!!! I talked to myself. I talked to myself HARD, and:
Now, I can just think about how I felt when I walked down that catwalk, or when I sat at a long table of incredible, intelligent, beautiful, funny women and felt fully included, not looking nervously in from the outside. I look just the same, I'm in the same world, I'm the same me so I am going to FEEL the same.
So Becky, Toni, Simply Be and all the other people who put together this phenomenal event. Thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart for letting me be part of it xxx